A Little Fright is a Good Thing

I've spent the past hour working on our "Fam Jam" family ministry event I'm organizing for church on November 12. It's basically going to be one fun, energetic hour for parents and kids to come together to sing together, dance together, learn together and overall spend some cool quality time together.

It was easy for me to agree to do this because it's a passion of mine to help parents reach out to their kids to show them who God is. I feel this way because 1. I'm a parent and I know how incredibly hard it is and 2. although taking kids to Sunday school is a very, very good thing ultimately parents are going to have the greatest influence on their kids 3. I think most parents get this to a certain point but just don't feel qualified enough to do it and need help.

After I agreed to it and started planning it out in my mind I realized I have very little experience in this area. I was overwhelmed with thoughts of "how can I do this?" "who is going to help me?" "I'm in way over my head." I greatly doubted I could pull it off the way I would like it to be. I also don't want it to happen if it's not done with excellence and a great experience for families. For me it's more of an obedience thing because unfortunately I have not gotten the approval from God yet to ditch this thing. So I'm going on faith here that it will work out.

God has been faithful so far to give me the encouragement I need to keep going. We had a brainstorming meeting a few nights ago and some great people contributed some great ideas. Before the meeting I came across this verse. Psalm 18 vs. 28-30 "For you will light my lamp; the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness. For by you I can run againsnt a troop, by my God I can leap over a wall. As for God his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is proven; he is a shield to all who trust in him." I journaled after reading that "thank you Lord, I needed this confidence."

This past Sunday our student ministries pastor spoke on "Finding Faith in the Face of Doubt." Due to my 6 month old distracting me every Sunday I never get to hear the entire message but I try to take home at least one thing. I loved an observation he put in the outline. "If you never get scared, you're not living for Jesus." YES. Okay so I'm scared, so I don't think I can pull this off, so I'm a little overwhelmed with getting the help I need but shoot this is exactly where I should be.

I'm learning that my doubt is not a sign that I should not be doing it but more a healthy reminder that I can't do it alone. Even if Fam Jam is not as great as I envision it to be I know my faith will be stronger and for that it's worth it.