Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of God....
What does this mean to me? I don't think this verse is about being depressed, sad and walking around sullen all the time until we die. I do think it means finally coming to grips with the fact that although disturbing, my spriritual condition before God is empty and poor in spirit and that's how it should be. It means next to the almighty God who encompasses everything good and holy I'm a very needy child who is inadequate, helpless and making mistakes constantly yet deeply loved. I think it also means because God created me to be with him I will always struggle with some degree of poverty until I can meet him face to face. I really resonated with what our teaching pastor said yesterday at church, "embrace emptiness- created for.......can't quite have."
Rather than being depressed this awareness gives me freedom. Recognizing my spiritual poverty and being ok with it helps me keep my eyes focused on the only one that can one day take away that emptiness. It gives me the freedom to be who I am and know that God can use me in that place even being poor ins spirit. It's OK to be empty, to struggle. When I feel the sting of what this life on earth can bring I will remind myself that yes, it hurts to be far from where I was created to be and that having desires for things of this earth will not fill my needs. But then I will look to my God and put all of my trust and hope in him in the midst of my emptiness and I will be blessed.
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Oh Man...I wish I could have been there to see that!! I am bummed about the absence of a picture for this post. It's funny you mentioned it, because while I was reading, I made sure to scroll down slowly to keep from seeing the anticipated picture prematurely. Then I realized there wasn't one. Bummer. Oh well...I'll have to get my fix by searching your archives for the picture of Emmie in the dishwasher with the knives. That's my all time favorite!
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